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Between here and then, I gues-timate it was a pretty much eventful few weeks laden with long-hours-late-nights, 2 apps published (with another awaiting for the much-complicated App Store to approve, and 3 more orders awaiting approval) 5 videos produced, couple more e-books read, and caught-up/indulged in some TV series among others.
Managed to catch up with some close friends and life has been kind with ideas as well... I guess all is dandy eh?
But in hindsight, I realized I have a teeny tiny bit of a pickle of myself.
This comes whenever I need to explain/tell about what am I doing these days. To my friends.
I'd somehow caught myself reverting to my stuttering slur in listing the work I do.
I'm quite sure I handled myself well in this towards new acquaintance, but somehow I'd clammed up amongst friends.
Now what is this so?
Mayhap I feel inadequate since they'd know I have neither the education/foundation or work-related experience period.
It isn't a case of me not being proud of my work (okay, I'll leave a 1% probability on the few that isn't my personal best), yet somehow I'd be embarrassed to show my images/videos to even the S.O.
Those few occasions that I've shown would certainly entail a good amount of pestering somehow.
Heck, I remembered clear as day that I would leverage people that I deemed as creative to produce the significant graphics in the past, as I never would've thought that it is possible for me to try my hands on it.
Mayhap it was because I crash-coursed myself and googled my merry way to learn Photoshop, Illustrator and Power Director (and I am ashamed over here too, in naming Cyberlink Power Director as my post editing software) ,used online sites such as Canva, Mersica and SC for quick solutions and still holding on to the Beginner's badge over at Codecademy.
oh darn, it's already the 29th
Mayhap I do have a tinge of doxophobia.